You were my favorite person in times of hard pain, and
low low, my hype, my
little big secret lover, someone I was looking to spend time with, you made everything to make me smile and still do, which I ap|
preciate because it's not easy right now, but you also
put me down so many times, made me doubt
my sanity, me, who I am, this fuckin' life. Today, when I was standing in front of that door, reading, I had to ask myself 100 times, are you sure this is real? That he even exists? Are you sure this is not some kind of trauma related response from your brain, what if you're actually going crazy? What if it's just your imagination? I never doubt my sanity like this, never thought I could be this level crazy, and then I saw the soda dose and something broke a little somewhere inside. That's when I decided to leave because this can't be true. So I'm choosing to live it that way,
because I can't go on like this, but if you're actually real, I just want you to know that you are a great guy, even if you don't believe it, you shouldn't doubt your looks, cause only superficial people choose other based just on that. And the more you learn about someone, and how they are, you see them as most beautiful people out there and you don't care what others think, beauty is in the eyes, in the heart, in kindness and appreciation and love. You have all of them, trust yourself a little bit more, don't put yourself down like that, because you don't deserve it.
Example:
All people make bad choices, the idea is to learn something out of them. It's all about learning and survival in this world and only the best make it far, so be a little more proud, not because of others, cause I know you can fake it, do it for you, cause it's the true.
Self sabotage really is a
big ass bitch I guess, I've known her for a long time and that's why it's not hard for me to understand you, but it still hurts like a bitch. .Learn to love yourself cause you really are worthy of it, that's why I chose to love you, that's why your friends to the same.
Unlovable people don't get love, cause you can feel it in your soul when you meet them, believe me So I hope you choose to see yourself in a better life, cause you brought sunshine in a cold ass summer, and that's not something anyone can do.
Take care of you.For someone who made it on my top favorite list, and it's not easy. You know it.