The disrespectful servant
TDS was defined this could also be the disrespectful soldier. Imagine you have that unconditional love you are looking for. You love everyone without the condition they love you back. Imagine it was your destiny to be
martyred for everyone by
crucifixion. You carried out your destiny to the point of being hung on a cross and you are suffering the worst torture you can imagine. Your faith is strong and you
cry out to God: "Father, into Your Hands, I commit My Spirit." A soldier is coming to end your suffering with
the spear of destiny. The soldier says: "At first, I figured if you could last three days
on the cross I would be satisfied. Then after watching you suffer a week it got easier to watch. So I moved it to a month and told myself I would be satisfied. Then Watching you suffer got easier and less satisfying. I started checking on you less frequently. I still cannot believe you are godlike even though you have hung there for over two decades."Disrespectful people will never be satisfied because they believe Respect must be earned. Nothing you ever do will be enough to earn the respect of a disrespectful person.This is a reoccurring dream I have had for the last 22 years. I have been both the soldier and Jesus in this dream. 90% of the time I was the soldier and shoved the spear through the second rib from the bottom and broke the
spearhead off.