It's when you're not sure if this guy you
like-like so much actually likes you back or just makes fun of you. Because you're out there speaking to all kind of doors until you question your sanity and never seem to find the answer. He seems to be everything you ever asked for and the beginning of an extended
psychiatric exam, both at the same time. So you're kinda starting to wonder if you're not just an
overdone joke for people with too much time, if he actually lives where you live, if he really like-likes you like he says, if this is some kind of revenge for something you don't even know you've done. You're starting to feel that you put your heart on the line for something that, the one you're
putting out there for, isn't even real. Is it staying out in the cold, talking to "yourself" and to doors, putting everything out there actually worth it? Cause
the fears are eating at everything you are, starting to make you feel anxious and lost, like you
never left "home". You want to be patient because no-one ever made you feel like that, like you belong right there, in their arms, no-one cared like that for you but what if it's just in your mind?